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[29 Dec 2008|01:37pm] |
some people are really low.
and they only care about things as long as it helps them. and they don't care about who they hurt. those people piss me off. especially when one of those people use to be your best friend. and the thing thats funny is this situation that i am talking about didn't even affect me. haaa. :)
ohio is boring after awhile.
amber's in new york. tanglewood people are in new york. and i'm in ohio.
my life is strange.
i'm done.
peace and love.
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[22 Dec 2008|06:10pm] |
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so i haven't written in this in legit year since 2007. and its almost 2009. whoaaa. = ]]
i was really enjoying looking at all my extreme emo middle school entries and my love and wanting of friendship of a certain silly boy named andrew, who i can say i don't love, and i really think i never did love him but more cared for him that i was so young so i really didn't know the difference. and trust me there's a huge difference. also i am no longer friends with, and honestly have nothing against him. something else that make me laugh is the fact i kept saying i need a boyfriend...why for what purpose to make me feel b etter? i don't really know i just laugh. also the whole entire hate of not getting the part i wanted in musicals at south side, which has continued so i think i am slowing turning into a non-theatre kid at south side. which is strange cause i love it so much. also all the people i used to be friends with i really am not friends with anymore. (from middle school/early high school) but is that even totally surprising? i look at these silly middle school posts and how much i have and really have not changed it's quite interesting. i know i still have so many things to learn.
i made all-state this year for mixed choir. it was so much fun. singing is my true joy and passion.
at my girls choir i am the lead girl. which i something i have wanted since i joined. it seems so silly. but i love it and the girls are like my sisters each and every one of them so yeah. :)
i still go to MSM its my 3rd year. i haven't had a free saturday since freshman year. and let me tell you it is sooooooo sooooooo soooooooooo worth it. i have grown so much with jane there and i really feel so happy there. once again its a place that helps me relize everytime i go there that it is something i want to do.
this summer i had a life changing experience at Boston University Tanglewood Institue aka Tanglewood aka T-wood aka BUTI. i was put with 75 other amazing young singers who shared the same love and talent that i did for classical singing. i was able to meet many of my idols from renee fleming, barbara cook, phyliss curtin and many more. i was able to work with pros including composer john williams as well as the amazing prof. hoff. :) and many others. but besides the fact of learning so much, i was able to meet all of these amazing people that connected with me on our love of singing and music. i honestly meet so many of my true and best friends there. they all were totally amazing and talented people who pushed me, helped me, comforted me, but more importantly changed me. when i came back home from Tanglewood i knew that there was no way i didn't want to persue singing as a career and for college. i miss it everyday. when i wake up in the morning i think kay i'll have to walk up to groton but then i relize im not in lenox anymore and i won't be able to see some of the most amazing people ever. :) it truly changed me, not just by making me a better singer, performer, and musican. but with dealing with people and getting to know people and sharing the same love for something. i miss Tanglewood everyday. ♥
i feel so blessed and lucky to have this gift, especially since i know for a fact this is what i want to do for the rest of my life. which is an absolutely awsome feeling. i adore singing and music so much. it really is the only thing i seriously seem to get right. :)
so honestly i was gonna randomly write on this to complain. i had a really really terrible week last week. and honestly no one reads this anymore i just though i could vent this way instead of writing it by hand. iv'e always liked typing more. im kinda in this dark spot of my life. and i have been feeling really depressed and i really mean that i'm honestly not just saying that to be emo ohhh look at me waw waw wawww. but i'm not gonna write on this and complain just yet...soon probably haaaa. but not now.
i have so many things to live for and be thankful for i'm gonna try to take that apporach. if it doesn't work i'll type again.
so i'm gonna leave this not really in an extremley happy mood or a depressed pissed off mood. just kinda calm.
and hopefully things will work out and in case anyone for some strange reasons decides to read this.
happy holidays & a very happy new year to you darlinggsss. ♥
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| I dont worry cause everythings gonna be alright. = ]] |
[10 Oct 2007|03:42pm] |
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i really like alicia keys new single.
its so happy and stuff.
thanks chole your awsome by the way. = ]]
progress reports came home today.
all my teachers said good things like positve attidue, pleasure to teach and stuff.
so thats good.
that strangest and funniest part of my day was when i guy was like i would bang you.
he was blind as you can see. haaaaaaa.
gossip girl and americas next top model tonight.
haaa.
i have a math test friday.
i should go study for that.
xoxo. = ]]
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| A Few Years Later.... = ]] |
[08 Oct 2007|09:18pm] |
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hi im emma.
yeah i know i havent written in this for a long time.
and i probably wont write in it after this but i dont know.
the reason im writing is im done with all my work;im not tired;none of my friends are picking up there cells not even gerad; and im bored.
so i was looking at old entries from this.
and i laughed.
because most of them said i miss;i need;im sick;im gonna die;im sad. and really crappy dramatic and stupid stuff like that.
i dont feel that way anymore. and its awsome.
and the thing is i think im going through more things in my life then i was then. who knows. maybe ive grown. there are multiple things in my life that are going on now that i dont get at all. but i still am happy.
its a good thing. taking life and enjoying it no matter what happens.
because everything in life happens for a reason.
this probably makes no sense if anyone looks at this. which i know wont happen.
hmm.
its nice not to need a boy. not to be overdramatic about fake people. not to cry over not getting the lead in a play.
cause the thing is either way life goes on.
and your gonna have to make the most of it.
even if it doesnt go your way.
i kinda like writing in this thing again. even though no one except me sees it.
i have nothing left to say.
goodbye. = ]]
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[25 Nov 2006|12:38am] |
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first of all before i type anything i just wanna say that im sorry
that was a really stupid post & i was in a stupid bad mood just
looking for someone to be all sweet to me. Oh well. Happy Late
Thanksgiving !! So anyway the reason why i'm writing this. Tod
-ay i went from the city on the train and meet up w.ryan t. & ryan
d. who ill probably call tiss & demarco, & if i dont well then yell at
me kay ?? i dont know why im typing this nobody reads or writes
in LJ anymore.but i do. so anyway. yeah we were hanging out and
then we saw angie who meet up w.mike, and we went to 7-11 &
starbucks & the train station platforms =] it was pretty cool. Then
demarco left & then mike called zach & brendan & demarco came
back & we went to Nicks Pizza pretty much to check out a bus-
boy hahaaaaaa =] we have no life =] but it was fun & i like have no
school on fridays & i like all my friends. i have no MSM tomorrow
which i am kinda happy about actually. so i get to hang out w.
people. yay !! i also got into student directed. yay !! =] that makes
me really happy to =] ive decided that i really have to stop being
all 'emo' all the time. im not emo thats not the right word, fake
depressed i guess would be right ?? or maybe i just dont
see all the good things in life & i just complain about the [few]
bad things. thats cause im stupid. but ive been really happy
lately and i wanna stay that way. i am starting to wonder if
this post is making any sense. cause its kinda late - ish im
not think right at all. but whatever. no one reads this anyway
soo yeah currents ??
Current Clothes: grey sweat capris;black v-neck;red south side wrestling sweatshirt;white fuzzy socks
Current Undergarments: blue underwear;black bra
Current Jewelry: tiffany braclets & tiffany necklace
Current Mood: happy;but starting to get really tired
Current Taste: nothing
Current Hair: pony tail
Current Annoyance: head ache
Current Smell: TOMMY girl perfume
Current thing you ought to be doing: nothing
Current Book: drawn together
Current DVD in Player: spongebob movie [haaaaaaaa......]
Current Refreshment: aqua
Current Worry: uhhhhhh....
Current Crush: a guy♥
well
peaceeeeeeee out cub scout
xoxo--emma♥
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[19 Nov 2006|09:52pm] |
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i feel like i have no control over anything
it sucks just feeling that way
i got gretel in hansel & gretel for MSM =]
this is really small font; but i like it
i want to say great job to everyone that was in
midsummer nights dream
yeaahhhhh yeahhhhhh
i wish i had no school tomorrow
happy feet is out i wanna see it so bad
i miss my old friends
& i need some new ones too
whatever
i have nothing else to write
i feel like im going through depression again
& that no one cares about me'
& i feel like im wearing a smile a lot its weird
i need to get off of long island
booo youuu
--- emma
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| THIS IS HALLOWEEN |
[31 Oct 2006|02:34pm] |
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happy halloween
i hope you all enjoy being someone your not
yeah
so this morning i was walking w/vicks and elijjah came up to us
he was looking pretty hott in his football player costume
and he yelled at the top of his lungs
'im a fuckking black kids in tight pants'
hahaa my lyfeeee
ive been invited to like 1000023572501123507 different places for tonight
but i dont think im gonna go anywhere
i wish i had that boy =]
hmmmmm....
peace out cub scout
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tomorrow is halloween
& im excited !!
im still trying to make the folks lemme go to the halloween parade thooo =/
but still im really excited for it !!
ohhh & i saw Quasha today =]
yipppeeee ya yay !!
haaaaa im a dork =]
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i really like love this boy
and i have no idea how to tell him
=]
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[02 Oct 2006|11:22pm] |
yeah you know how i said there were girls injured
there were eight
now theres seven
b.c one died
& the guy that killed the girls
had three kidss
our world is fuckedd....
XXXXXXXXXXXX
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some pyscho went to a school in amish country PA
& he tied a group of little girls by there feet at made
them line up against the chalkboard. he let the little
boys & the pregnat teacher go. but the little girls he
made stay. he shot three of them & they died. & many
of these little girls are injured. then after he did this
he killed himself. it sickens me & makes me so
upset that something like this would happen. this
guy was also married. ehhhhhh. these girls were like
five or six year olds too. just image the ones that
survied and what they'll have to deal w.for the rest
of there lives.
RIP to those three little girls xxxxxxoooooo
& to hell to the bastard that killed them
when i heard that on the news it runed my day.
im gonna go watch the bachlor now since i
know one of the girls that on it.
im sad really sad
xxxxxooooo
emma
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its werid...
cause i hate fall
but i absolutely love
october
=]
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[18 Sep 2006|09:36pm] |
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i cut him out of my life
forever
hey there ladies and gentttsssss'
im not really that sad
even though it has a said face for being hott
yeahh
theres madrigals yay !!
=D
that makes me happy
city tomorrow
ohhh boy =]
whose going tomorrow ??
i get to see my husband tomorrow !!
ohhh gosh my terrrrrrrr
hahaaa you can just call me mrs.terrrrrr
i love tr knight & greys anats. !!
woww im a dork
i like this music im listening too
kayyy im done now
peace out cub scout
xxxxxxx
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[12 Sep 2006|11:00pm] |
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i think this will be a strange entry cause i dont know what to typee
yeahh
i have nothing to type
ryan & i pranked andrew he didnt pick up though
ugly craterface
i really hate him
honestly
i was his best freaking friend who was a girl & me being a girl was just part of it
& now he has a girlfriend
so why would he need his old best friend who just happened to be a girl
i miss him...
not as a boyfriend
as a friend
he was an asshole
& still is
& i wanna be an asshole with him and not w. anybody else
i hate when i think about things that seem'd to happen such a long time ago
stupid boy
stupid me
stupid relationships
stupid life
stupid stupid stupid
yeah
anyone going to the art society thingy tomorroww?
yeah cause i might.
im weridd i want need a boy
& a life.
=/
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[10 Sep 2006|12:06pm] |
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bahh humbug
i want it to be christmas
only for the yummy drinks at starbucks
can someone get me a gingerbread latte
pleaaaassssssseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
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school
yeah
unlike everyone else
i kinda like love it
=]
yeah i know im a stupid little freshman
but i adorreee it
=]
i agree w.codi no madrigals make me really sad
uhhh classesss are kayy
i like theartre arts
even if i dont have mrs.siderman but thats kayy too i guess
yeah drama guild meeting today
i really like those people
even though i kinda knew most of them
not having a homeroom = sexxxxx
or maybe noe =/
i do miss summer
especially the beach ahhhh nickerson =]
most of my teachers are new
i had quite a bit of homework today which more then kinda made me mad
but its all done
teheee
im a dork
im going to get school supplies at staples now.
i guess i should get off
but before i do....
i'll ask what everyone has
'How was your first Day ?'
&
'Anyone trying Out for Midsummer ?'
peaceeeeee out cub scout
im happy like truly happy
& i havent been for the longest time
& i dont know why i am either
weirddddd but thats cool
im going finally
w.hearts -- emma
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ahhhh school starts tommorrowww
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=D
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[25 Aug 2006|05:23pm] |
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hey
im starting to feel unloved
since no one commented on my last update
but whatever
everyone got the schedules today except me cause im in ohio
booo that whore
im shaking cause its really cold in this house
kay the main reason why i typed this
i asked someone this and she laughed at me and said im not the 'sex & the city' hand booklet
it took me about twenty minutes to understand what a hand booklet was
but anways heres my question
'when you hug a guy and he pats your back what does it mean ?'
like it could mean two things i guess
either choice A which is the pats mean stop hugging me
or choice B which means that the guys likes hugging you and is showing it by the pat
ughhhhhhhhhhhhh !!
none of this makes no sense but i was just wondering cause it happened to me
from a very sweet very cute guy
and i was like grrrr he hates me & the way i hug
=[
tear tear
but you kinda start thinking about it
like the way people say 'hi' & the way the talk to you & explain things to you & even hug you
its stupid and the question will be bothering me forever
ohhhh well
stupid boys
im a stupid girl for worrying.
but anyway new topic
i cant think of anything really
i want my schedule kind of
i miss my friends
& i kinda miss new york
but it is really peaceful out here and i lovveee that
i havent gotten any school supplies or my backpack
i think i might get a messenger bag instead
i think ill do currents mannn
Current Clothes: capris & blue/red striped polo
Current Jewelry: tiffany braclet
Current Mood: tired & mellow
Current Taste: my tounge
Current Hair: down and curly
Current Annoyance: i more then kinda want my schedule
Current Smell: nothing
Current thing you ought to be doing: i guess spending time w.my family or finishing my summer reading
Current Book: the mist of avalon
Current DVD in Player: the pantom of the opera
Current Refreshment: root beer
Current Worry: nothing it still is summer =]
Current Crush: the boy that patted my back when i hugged him grrrrrr !!
haha
bye kiddies
xoxo--emma♥
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hey again
i knowwritten i forever but ive decided randomly decided to write now.....
ive never really relized how lucky i am
manhattan school of music
it cost like 6 thosand a year i think even more
i know people that cant pay the morage for there house and they got kicked out
it scares me a lot
i have a family
& i have quite a few friends
that i know care about me & love me
& imagine having absolutley no body to care or love you
it scares me a lot
or losing someone you care or love about forever
you can never hold on to something forever...
you just have to love it while you got it
but what if you forgot that just really & you loose them
& thats it poof there , there gone
it scare me a lot
i just was thinking of how lucky i actually am
& so for the next time i bitch & complaine like a baby about something stupid...
like the top at Banana Repbulic isnt on sale....
then can someone still remind me that there are people that cant even shop at BR
and there are people that dont have money that are homless
yeah im tired & i thought lettme post something on my livejournal
but i never thought i would post something like this
yeahh so i just was thinking of how lucky i am.......
& how lucky we all are
because trust me there is someone that has it a lot worse then you do
& when we mean worse it more important then your daddy not giving you money to go to the mall
life scares me a lot
i know im only going into high school
but four years will go in a second
i mean look what happened with three
i really didnt know where this post would go with
& i dont know if it will make any sense once i click 'update journal'
cause i dont proofread =]
but i just spilled my lots on my labtop & the keyboard
cause im scared to say this is how i feel
im scared to be scared
and i have no reason to be
because i never had anything real in a sense to be scared of
it makes no sense & if it does please comment it
i would really appriticate it like loads
i dont know if i made any sense i just spilled
g'night babbeeeeycakes
xoxo--emma&hearts
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[10 May 2006|11:21pm] |
fuck it
i just had it
fuckkk
fuckkk fuckkkk fuckkkkkkk
holy crap i nneed some fucking emo pills or some crap
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